yan ang current job ko ngayon.... aside from bug fixes and modification requests... suma-sideline pa kong contact-person ng tester namin sa japan.... saya di ba???
oki lang naman sa akin, since malapit lang naman ang apartment, at usually, kapag gabi umuuwi, hinahatid kami ni mang erns hanggang apartment :)
grabeng ka-busy-han ito (mabs grammar... :) )
miss ko na makipag-chikahan over the jabber... ngayon, pagnakikita ko nag-bli-blink yung jabber client ko, hindi na ko excited.... iniisip ko... hay naku, bug na naman.... hehehe.... di tulad dati.... natutuwa ako, kse chika-minute uli.... (hahaha.... tsismosang bata!)
oki lang sa akin ang ganito... pro wag naman tipong all-year-round... hehehe.... once in a while, it's nice to know that im needed... yung tipong ikaw yung tinatanong kung alam mong paganahin yung isang bagay....
it's almost 9pm here.... malapit nang matapos ang stress test ko ng project namin... at so far, wala pa namang problems from japan.... 1 hour to go... :) hopefully pare-pareho kaming makauwi ng maayos... :)
Friday, October 28, 2005
tech-support til 10pm :)
Friday, October 21, 2005
naiyak ako, promise.....
Tonight I Can Write
by Pablo Neruda
(20 love poems and a Song of Despair)
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
Write for example, 'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'
The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.
She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.
To hear immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to a pasture.
What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.
This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.
The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.
I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.
Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.
Her voice. Her bright body. Her infinite eyes.
I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is short, forgetting is so long.
Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Thursday, October 13, 2005
salvation from exile
behold..... the salvation from exile.....
there's a recurring song in my head.... "we're on our way home... we're on our way home.... we're going home..."
(yun lang ang alam kong lyrics dun sa kanta... pro paulit-ulit sya sa utak ko....hehehe....)
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Jitse...the aftermath
hay! sa wakas! natapos din ang kalbaryo...
promise, after submitting my exam paper, i felt sooooo free....
no more going home (sa hotel) late at night, feeling guilty kse ndi na naman ako nakapag-aral... (wala kasi tlagang time... promise!!!)
at least ngayon, pwede na kong umuwi without the burden of "stretching" my time. Uwi lang tlaga para matulog!!! wow! ang sarap ng feeling... as in!
pro syempre, somewhere in the dark corners of my head, may worry pa din kung anu ang results ng exam. nasagutan ko naman lahat, pro jitse is one hell of a tricky exam. feeling mo tama, pro depende kase kung pano mo naintindihan yung problem... haaay.... life.
kung di ako pumasa dito, ayoko na tlaga mag-take uli... kakapagod e. the anticipation is just too much... madami na kong pressure from work, ayaw ko na muna dagdagan...
cguro kung di ako papasa, i might think of shifting careers... baka ndi ako meant maging programmer... i dunno, baka sinasabi ko lang ito ngayon... bukas, iba cguro ang iisipin ko... halata bang sabog pa ko....
oh, well, bahala na.... may deadline pa ko today.... :) got to go!
Saturday, October 08, 2005
7 days to go!!!
7 days to go and im gonna go home!!!... finally, after "one week"
(Cebu time-spacewarp calculation = Manila day * 11.8 days) hehehee...
im happy it's gonna be over soon.... hindi naman sa badtrip ako at nag-bt kami ng nearly 3 months sa Cebu... actually, im thankful dahil marami akong natutunan, ibang klase tlagang experience ito. Hindi lahat ng tao binibigyan ng ganito pagkakataon. Pro syempre, miss ko na rin tlaga ang family at friends ko.... aaawww... :)
excited na ko... :) hehehe....
simply no place like Manila.... Manila, I'm coming home...
isa sa mga paborito.....
by Pablo Neruda
(Cien Sonetus de Amor, 1960)
(translated by Stephen Topscott)
I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms but
carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or
from where. I love you straightforwardly,
without complexities or pride; so I love you
because I know no other way
than this: Where “I” does not exist, nor “You”,
so close that your hand on my chest is my
hand, so close that your eyes close as I fall
asleep.