updates! updates!

• Started playing the guitar again yesterday to keep me occupied. and now my fingers are hurting and starting to form callus in the tips.
• Had lunch with Donna, Harmy, and Harmy's mom at Clap Resto. The crab was ginormous!
• Joining a lesbian org for a badminton game next week. Hopefully, I won't make a fool of myself too much. :P
• I'm thinking of "broadening my horizons" given that I'm in such a small place with limited options. :D... we'll see how it goes next week! :P
• Will be taking Oracle SQL expert exam by October... MUST STUDY!!! MUST STUDY!!! MUST STUDY!!!
• Mandarin lessons for 90SGD for 10 lessons... should I, or should I not?!... hmmnn...

Realizations in Kopitiam...

I was sitting alone in Kopitiam in Clementi waiting for Donna. The weather was pretty gloomy and everything's in slow-motion. I forgot to bring a book to keep me occupied. I hate it when I'm not busy these past few days. I just end up over-analyzing everything... The idle mind is the devil's workshop. And let me tell you, the devil indeed finished a lot of projects inside my head today.

I was putting the pieces of stories together. And that's when it hit me. How could I have not seen it?! How could I have been so stupid?

Familiar feelings went rushing back. But this time, it was different. This time it was filled with so much hate. I hate myself for being such a fool. Lesson learned, I guess.

This is why I should never be left alone on a stormy weather...

Go...

Go
by Barbie's Cradle

Go...Love her with all your heart
Go...Leave me where I am

Cause I'll be fine
I'll take care of myself
I will keep
everything we shared

Go...To a higher plane
Go...Don't worry I'll stay sane

The day we end
The waiting starts
But it's patient waiting
waiting

It's good
It's good for the heart
Food for the soul

Go...You can always return
Go...No bridges will be burned

Cause I'm a friend
As much as a lover
This doesn't know an ending
We'll keep each other in the heart
and reunite our souls

Classic Black and White with a Dash of Sexy Red... and a lump of Doreamon???

As I've mentioned in my past post, I rearranged my room the other day, and bought a few stuff to complete my "classic black and white, with a dash of sexy red" color scheme.

Here are the pictures:

The mirror I bought from FairPrice: (the price of which, I must say, is not very fair!)


My bed with a lot more pillows and new sheets. I elevated the bed aswell, by adding another thinner cushion underneath:


My workspace, Japanese-style: (a.k.a., I'm too cheap to buy a real desk and a decent chair)




I tucked away the bears so that it would look more like a grown-up's room. (Don't worry, they are in a safe place and i'm pretty sure they're still singing their morning songs... :P)

My problem, however, is Doreamon... where do I keep such a huge stuffed toy?!

Definitely not going well with the room's color scheme

FAIL! Insert sad trombone here...

im sooooo bored...

bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.

sleep-deprived...

Sleep
by Barbie's Cradle

I'd like to stay but would you like that or would you rather have me
Leave you alone in a peaceful home would you rather not see
You hit the ground and hear the sound of a child crying
Her eyes are colder and colors of morning disappear

"Where did I go?" that's what I say it's my daily question
"Where did you go?" I saw you leave you made my last decision
When you awaken I'll be the first you'll take before the coffee
When you retire I'll be the last your eyes will see before you

Sleep at night, I will sing my lullabye

I will not flinch when pictures come 'cause they make me peaceful
But don't ask me now 'cause now I'm numb I let go of a painful
Memory I don't wanna be stuck here anymore, you know
You'll go on and so will I but I'm only lying

Sleep at night, I still sing my lullabye
Sleep at night, I will sing my lullabye

The morning sun scorches my skin
Day is burning into nothing nothing nothing
When you look away, you tell me I still could touch you
But only when I...

Sleep at night, I still sing my lullabye
Sleep at night, I will sing my lullabye...

a change that's badly needed

I was so tired yesterday, cleaning-up my room. I can't believe there's that much clutter and crap in one small room!

I've re-arranged everything, even my bed's location and height. I removed one wooden table, and replaced it with a nice little box that acts as a side table. I also managed to find a relatively cheap full-length mirror from FairPrice in Boon Lay.

I discarded some old pillows and bedsheets and some clothes I know I'd never wear again. I also removed the desk clock which I can't really use to tell time. (it looks good though, but rather useless)

And to make my room a bit more tidier, (and more like a grown-up's room) I removed the bears and tucked them into a neat little box. Doreamon, though, due to his size, is impossible to store, so he get's to stay in my bed. (For now.)

So far I still need to buy a small carpet and a few floor pillows to make the room a bit more cossy.

I'll post pictures soon as I have finalized everything (and once I have the time) :P

Note to self...

... don't sleep the whole day!!!

now my head is throbbing and I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight.
great... just great!

relapse...

What Do We Mean To Each Other
by Sergio Mendes

I'd rather know if you had turned the page
If you go faster than I do
Suddenly it's not so clear just what I am to you
Am I friend, am I lover, do we still need each other
When you touch me, when you touch me baby I can tell

What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well

I can see clearly how im hurting you
Every breath gives you a way
All we go on separate roads has gone in the way.
Am I friend, am I lover, do we still need each other
When you hold me, when you hold me baby I can tell

What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well

Time became a poison looking slowly on my home
Screwing all the memories, Is it tearing us apart
When you touch me, when you touch me baby I can tell

What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well

What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well

Do you love me still or do you just mean well



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from lyricsdownload.com

Ang salita ayon ke Bob Ong...

"Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka"

how to make "kontra" a "supladang bruha"

I was in the gym, minding my own business in the abdominals machine. Then suddenly, a Chinese lady, probably in her early 30's approaches me:

lady: "how many more sets will you be doing?"
me:(fumbling to remove my earphones) "oh, will you be using it?"
lady: "why else would I ask?" (mataray ang bruha!)

nagtimpi lang ako, but if I was a bit more unhinged, malamang nasabunutan ko na sya. But instead of giving in to temptation, I managed to compose myself and I smiled at her.

me: "oh, sorry. because you look like you really don't need to work on your abs" (in fairness, kahit mataray si ate, sexy sya... panget nga lang... bwaaaaahahaha...)

lady: (blushes 2 shades of red) "Oh..." (long and really really awkward pause)
me: "here you go" (sabay alis sa machine)

and that's how you make kontra a supladang bruha... :P

2 down, 5 to go...

Yesterday was my 2nd year anniversary here in SG.
Time flies by so fast, I hardly noticed it. Hopefully the next five would be a breeze as well.
Yep. I'm staying here for atleast 5 more years (that's the plan for now... but we'll see how it goes...)

looks like I'm staying here...

My application for Permanent Residence has been approved...

Looks like I'm staying here far longer than expected.
Honestly, I'm not so sure what to feel right now.

Mt. Pinatubo, anyone?

sinong gustong sumama?