here we go again...

issue na naman pla uli ito...
haaaayyyy.....

how come when everything in my life is going perfectly well and comfortable, this thing always comes up?

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a dialogue all in my head:

kelangan ba tlaga?
oo... para sa akin din naman ito.

pro baket ngayon pa?
kung di ngayon kelan?

pro masaya pa ako.
yan ba ang prioridad mo?

anu ba ang tama?
EWAN???!!!

excuse me, pwede pong bumati?

Happy Birthday Melissa!!! :)


.... wala lang... hehehe...

independence day...

Happy 5th year anniversary!
... a celebration of freedom and independence...

limang taon na pla mula ng nagpaalam ako (or tayo)...

and honestly...
im happy i (or we) made that decision 5 years ago.

da vinci, sleeplessness, and omen

one... two... three... three sheeps... ahahahaha....
i seriously couldn't sleep last night...im not sure why. I tried counting sheeps... wala din, naalala ko lang yung episode sa sesame street na nagbibilang ng sheeps si count dracula...hehehe...
Maybe naninibago ako since matagal din akong nagstay sa bahay tpos last night biglang sa apartment na ako natulog. or maybe di ako pinatulog ng fact that the movie da vinci code sucks to the high heavens.

So dark the con of ron
Ron Howard! What have you done! Seriously, Dan Brown should sue them for doing a movie that falls terribly short of what readers of the book expected (readers = me :) )

Date na lang, pinagkakitaan pa...
666 - june 6, 2006. Opening ng Omen. not so sure if its a remake of the old omen or if its an addition to the long line of omen sequels... gusto ko rin manood,pro ayaw ko magka-nightmares... lalo ngayon na hirap akong matulog...

Being alone,being free,being me,and chopping people up! all in one movie night

for the record, i have friends
I watched a movie(da vinci code) at glorietta1 alone. Ok, before you start calling me names like loser, outcast, friendless bastard...etc... Let me clear things up. U must be wondering where my friends are?! Well, some have watched it already, others dont even want to watch it, others just have other things to do. So u see, i have friends, they're just not available this moment.

i can live with or without you
So what the hell! I said to myself, "With or without friends, i will watch da vinci! Whats the deal ba about watching a movie alone? Di nman kyo magchichicahan s loob. All u do there
is just sit and watch and for the sake of the others watching, keep quiet. I mean its one of
those things u can do and enjoy alone, unlike badminton, chess, basketball. etc...

lights on, the shame, the shame
I know it shouldn't be a big deal. But once the movie was over and the lights were turned
on, i felt a certain sense of shame. Shame that i was alone and the other ppl around were
either in couples or in groups. I know very well that there's nothing wrong about being
alone, but somehow i feel this certain paranoia about what other ppl think.

what do u think sir? How bout u maam?
Have i (or we) been reduced to this? Creatures whose satisfaction out of something must be inconformity with others? Individuals whose view of what is acceptable is constantly modified, depending on the view of the world? Have i become too dependent to the point of losing my own identity? Nooooooooooo........ [insert echo here...]

it's just that i, it's just that i...
Not that i want to be a rebel or something. I just want to have a point and stand up for it. no matter what it is and irregardless of what others feel or think about it. I just dont want to worry about what others would think about me. I just want to be understood without having to explain. I just want to be free. I just want to be me. Unfortunately, it aint that easy. But believe me, im trying!

suki, bili na mura lng per kilo
sabi nila, you cant chop people up and love them in pieces. Kelangan buo, both good and evil. Question is, kung may malaman kang "masama" tungkol s taong mahal mo, mamahalin mo pa ba ang buo nyang pagkatao? Wala lang, di ko rin gets kung pano ko npadpad s topic n to... I guess it has something to do with being free.

napulot ko lang somewhere...

gender sensitive version of Spiderman?

nearly a week...

tuesday night
started to have an ichy throat

wednesday
the itchy throat turned into cough.
mabel stayed home kasi may lagnat at ubo sya.
later that night, i went straight to bed (literally) tipong gumising lang ako pra magtanggal ng sapatos. at ayun na, nilagnat na rin ako... :(

thursday
pumasok pa din ako kahit masama pakiramdam ko...
(which was quite a wrong decision)
bumigay din ako nung bago maglunch, so nag-file na lang ako ng undertime at umuwi sa apartment.

friday
di na lang ako pumasok, masama pa rin pakiramdam ko.
umuwi na lang ako sa bahay namin sa valenzuela.
may lagnat pa din ako...
there's no place like home... :)

saturday
feeling a little bit better. wala nang lagnat, pro masakit pa rin ulo ko. :(

sunday
fever, cough, and cold is now gone. my head and back still hurts though...
not so sure kung papasok na ko bukas... baka daw kse mabinat lang ako. :(

he's not worth it...

he's not worth the tears...
marami pang iba dyan...

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what ever happens...
no matter how much i nag (or as i call it, "care" ) :)
and no matter how stubborn (or as u call it, "persistent") u are...
do know that im here... :)

chopsticks...

it's so like u to make something so simple so profound.
thanks...
sori uli...

Hay.... EWAN ko sa inyo....

baaaaaaaaaah...

sabi dati ng teacher ko, wala daw taong tanga...
kala ko nun, tama sya...
pro sa nalaman ko nitong mga nakaraang araw...

.... Ma'am... paumanhin po... mali po pla kyo...

ggrrrr.... kainis....

Barbie Rocks the Big Dome

Finally!!!! nakabili na ko ng concert ticket ni barbie!!!! :)
Kaso ang layo ko na sa stage.... sa row H, seat #8 na ako nakaupo... (8-8... uy! fave number!)

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May nagpost ng question dun sa yahoogroups....
"will barbie be able to fill up araneta?"

hhhmmm.... actually... medyo natatakot din ako....
pro i know barbie's music has touched many people...
sana lang, lahat sila suportahan c barbie...
(geez... i sound like a total fan-girl... nyaaaahahahha....)

uy!!!! lahat kyo!!!! manood kayo ng concert ni barbie!!!!!!!

May 19,2006 (Friday)
8:00pm
Araneta Coliseum

Ticket prices :
Patron (Reserved Seating) = 1056 (dito ako!!)
Lower Box (Reserved Seating) = 845
Upper Box A (Free Seating) = 634
Upper Box B (Free Seating) = 423
Gen. Admission (Free Seating) = 159

cmon!!! make nood!!! :) (nyaaahahaha.....)

cleaning up my harddisk...

ngayon ang last day ng aking 4-day vacation....
it's a time to be alone... to rest... to think things through...
in short... ang maging bum... :)

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I was going though some of my files sa pc...
Im trying to free up some space... dami na ksing files... ang gulo na...
Nakita ko yung mga pictures from the time na bago pa lang ako sa nsp up to present... wow...
tagal na pla... 2 years...

Just realized... masaya pla talga ako dito...

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Are you sure you want to remove the folder "NSP Pictures" and move all it's contents to the Recycle Bin?

No...
of course not...


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3 weekends + 3 beaches = 1 hell of a sunburn

Ngayon ko lang ma-po-post yung mga pictures.... :)


beach # 1 : Camotes Island Group

Probably one of the best beaches if ever been in (i've been in very few... hehehe)
Nice kse it's really clean... at konti lang ang tao.
Buong pwlan mnl group nandoon, kasama din c cheann, sir jay, at sir dong.
Nag "island tour" din kame... We went to several parks within the island... Nag attempt din kame na manghuli ng tilapia sa may lake... the key word being "attempt"... hehehe...

waaahh..... ang nice.... :)
















waaaahhh......... (yah, i know... di ako papasang tourist guide... hehehe...)
















cottages sa may bato-bato...
















sa may lake...



beach #2 : Tambuli Resort

May mga "green stuff" sa may shore, kahit pati dun sa water... so medyo di ganong "swimmable" itong beach na ito... :(
We did have fun in the banana boat though... hehehe... sakit sa katawan...
Lahat ng taga-manila na "on-exile" dito sa cebu, kasama :)















Welcome to Tambuli...
















ang mga pinatapon...
















ang mga pinatapon (uli...)
















the "green stuff"... anu? wanna swim??? :)



beach #3: Maribago Bluewater Beach Resort

Kasama dito cla jas, gloi, metz, cheann, sheila, karen, at ang aming only boy... si frank... hehehe...















the beach...















the beach uli.... with some dead dude sa shore... hehehe...
















sa swimming pool kasama ang makulit na bata... (at mga mas makulit na matanda)
















art gallery...

/* Sama ng loob... */

/*

baaahhhh...
di ko na kinaya kahapon....
naiyak na lang talaga ako...
nagpatong-patong na lang cguro...

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isa na lang... lalarga na...

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naaawa ako sa mga first-time bt-ers namin (plus sa mga sarili namin)...
baka maging masama ang tingin nila sa bt...
di naman ganito dati...poor kids...

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the efforts (though late) are appreciated...
but what's done is done... di naman natin mababalik ang oras...
so i'll just look forward sa kung anu mang mangyayari ....and smile...
may magagawa pa ba ako?

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/* weekend??? */

/*

weekend?? anu yun?

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made my dts today... nak ng... 2weeks-worth of work... done in one week...

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we are now on standby... Tomorrow morning is the alpha release... we need to be here during IT so that bugs can be fixed immediately.im soooo bored...i tried updating my DD... i got even more bored.....

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feeling ko friday ngayon... feeler tlga ako... hehehehe...

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late na naman kame !!!! our second this month... so nag-file na lang ng halfday... :(
di ba enough reason yun "really NEED to sleep???" :(

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konting ihip na lang bagsak na mata namin... wala na ngang nagsasalita... sayang ang energy...

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nagkakapimples na naman ako... hhaaaayy... tokwa...

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1:38am na... sa unang araw ng linggo... tokwa tlaga... :( pro walang magagawa... lahat kame prang naipit lang sa sitwasyon...

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antok na ko... grabe....

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/* confused by earlier errors, bailing out... */

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just realized...what a boring life... :(
semi-tired of this kind of life...

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It's saturday... at nandito kame ngayon sa office, rendering OT... :(

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Words of the day: Dablcortation (' " ')

-nabasa namin sa coding guidelines na galing Japan. I think it was translated using Atlas translator... took us quite a while to realize what it meant..."Double quotation".... hahaha... funny noh??? natawa kame promise... ambabaw namin... hahaha...
isa yan sa mahirap sa trabaho namin... programmer ka na, semi-translator / manghuhula ka pa...pahirapan sa pag-intindi ng specs... hulaan ng hulaan kung anung ibig nilang sabihin...kung tama, e di oks, kung sablay... well... REDESIGN / RECODE!!!!...ouch... (mind u, madalas ito!)

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napansin ko lang while reading this entry.... REDESIGN - DE = RESIGN .... hehehe... funny...sabi ni dennis, yung DE daw "Design Engineer"... hehehe...
(still no plans though... just incase ur intrigued...)

while were on the topic...
i think isa ito sa major problems na kelangang i-address ng kahit anung company. As a programmer, nakaka-frustrate din kse yung papalit-palit ngdesign at paulit-ulit ng code... nakakababa sya ng morale... minsan, to a pointna people are starting to consider quitting...Pro sabi nga nila... lahat naman ng bagay nag-iiba, depende sa perspective. Pwede mo naman isipin na isa yung challenge...So ako, how do i view the situation??.... hhmmnn... depende sa mood... hehehe...

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wala akong maisulat kahapon... wala namang ganun ka-interesting na nangyari... parang katuladlang ng the day before that, except mas maaga kame naka-uwi...10:30pm... yah! yan ang definition naminng maaga...

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naalala ko lang... tinuro ng prof namin dati nung college...ito daw ang meaning ng "assume" sa programming world...
ASSUME = ASS-U-ME
ASS U for giving me incomplete specs...
ASS ME for believing that that was the specs u really wanted.

wala lang...hehehe....too many asses in one entry.... :)

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i kind of miss being a kid again...i think i grew up too soon...

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minsan di ko na maintindihan kung anung gusto kong mangyari...di na yata ako masaya... :(may mga araw na minsan di ko na kilala ang sarili ko...ito na ba yun? kung ito na... prang ayaw ko na... nakakasawa... nakakahinayang...dati nararamdaman ko pa na may mas magandang darating...pro bakit ngayon, parang wala na akong inaasahan... prang gusto ko na langna matapos ito...

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12:54am na... and we're still here in the office... at opo... sabado po ngayon...

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"confused by earlier errors, bailing out"
haaay....buti pa ang compiler...

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/* an example of poor iteration */

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puyat...puyat...puyat...

late na kame nakauwi kahapon... or should i say, kanina...2am... To make matters worse, when we got home to the hotel, we had to move to another room.So from our deluxe room, me and donna, plus melissa and sally, moved to the Residential suite...room 608.

Residential suite... hmmmnn... i had high expectations... it was actually something i was looking forward to... till we got to see it... :(

It wasn't as nice as we expected... it felt like a house (which i guessis the whole point why it's called a Residential suite... duh..) I miss the coziness of our old room...

The residential suite has 2 bedrooms, a kitchen, 2 bathrooms, a living room,and a small veranda (which i would prefer to be called "sauna-pretending-to-be-a-veranda"...since the exhaust of all the airconditioners are there...)

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wake-up...wake-up...wake-up...

slept at around 4am...
we woke up at 9am... yup...9 freakin' AM!!!you can just imagine the horror...
so while eating our breakfast downstairs, we decided to just come in latefor work...
yes, u read it right... we ate... in spite of the fact that we are terribly late,we just can't pass-out on our free buffet breakfast at the hotel... screw perfectattendance... im eating my freshly-cooked omelette no matter what... :)

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work...work...work...

official time-in... 10:30 AM... wow... 30minutes late...

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eat...eat...eat...

still quite bloated from our hearty breakfast... we decided to just have fruit salad for lunch... lami kaau...
for breaktime.. that blueberry thingy from nanie's sweetpost... really lami... :)

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work...work..work...

di ko man lang namalayan... thursday na pla...
all of us seem to have killed more than the necessary amount of braincellstoday... we're all pretty slow... nobody seems to understand anyone...most discussions have more that one "huh??? ano ulit???"poor braincells.... they died young...without serving much purpose... :))

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goto puyat...puyat...puyat

yah, i know... using goto... tsk..tsk..poor programming....forgive me... i lost alot of sanity today...
that's how it's been these past few days...nothing much to write other than "puyat", "wake-up", "work", "eat", "work"...

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in connection to this iteration:
just remembered this conversation i had with my cousin:

Cousin: ano work mo?
Ako: Software Design Engineer...
Cousin: wow! your job rocks!...
Ako: huh?!!! (sabay kamot sa ulo...)
... yah.. just about as interesting as a rock...

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ps:
teka... bakit walang condition for "break"?!!!! noooohhhhh.......(di maka-gets, panget....)

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Kwarto...

wala lang... namiss ko lang yung kwarto ko sa bahay... hehehe....

Kwarto
by Sugarfree


Maglilinis ako ng aking kwarto
Na punong-puno ng galit at damit
Mga bagay na hindi ko na kailangan
Nakaraang hindi na pwedeng pagpaliban

Oohh… Oohh…
Mga liham ng nilihim kong pag-ibig
At litrato ng kahapong maligalig
Dahan-dahan kong inipon
Ngunit ngayo’y kailangan nang itapon

CHORUS
Di ko na kayang mabuhay sa kahapon
Kaya mula ngayon, mula ngayon
May jacket mong nabubulok sa sulok
Na inaalikabok na sa lungkot
May panyong ilang ulit nang niluhaan
Isang patak sa bawat beses na tayo’y nasaktan

REPEAT CHORUS

Mula ngayon
Ala-ala ng lumuluhang kahapon
Dahan-dahan ko na ring kinakahon
Natagpuan ko na ang tunay kong ligaya
Lumabas ako ng kwarto’t naroon siya
Magpapaalam na sa ‘yo ang aking kwarto (4x)
Magpapaalam na sa ‘yo(3x)
Magpapaalam na sa ‘yo ang aking kwarto

Manila<->Cebu.... atbp...

**sigh**

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nakabalik na ko from Cebu last april5...
pro bukas, babalik uli akong Cebu...
hhmmnn... di naman ako sad or anything...
i actually think it's fun... hehehe... atleast kahit papaano hindi puro manila office ang nakikita ko. although syempre, nakakapagod din yung palipatlipat...

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happy easter nga pla sa lahat!!! :)

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burnout ba kamo?! lahat yata ng tao nakakadama nyan minsan...
anung solution... hhhmmmnn... iba-iba e... depende sa trip mo...
minsan a few trips here and there might help. Spend more time talking with people... Try to do things differently... Get a new hobby... Stare at a blank wall... or tulad nga ng sabi ni jeanie... boyfriend lang katapat nyan! hahahaha.... joke lang...

basta chill lang... it's ok to have focus on the job at hand, pro wag sobra... baka hindi mo mapansin yung bigger picture... yung picture kung san may mga baliw na tao sa paligid mo na sinusubukan kang patawanin... :)

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tinanong ako ng tatay ko kanina... bakit madalas daw late na nasa ofis pa din ako...
hhhmmnnn..... without thinking, sabi ko, "masaya e... "
hehehe.... labo....

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miss me?!!

whoa?! taaaaagal ko na pla di nakakapag-post... hehehe....
dami kong events na di nakwento... sayang...
anu na nga bang mga nangyari since my last post?!
1. naka-uwi na ko from japan... yup, yung last post ko, nasa japan pa ko... tagal na tlaga...
2. isang linggo lang ako nag-stay sa manila. after one week, pinapunta kame Cebu, for the new project...
3. nearly one month na kme dito sa Cebu... 3 weekends na sunod-sunod kmeng nag-beach ... (technically, me, frank, and cheann lang ang naka-buo ng 3weekends.. hehehe)
4. laki ng initim ko... :( 3x ba naman nag-beach!!
5. laki ng tinaba ko... :( it's Cebu.... kelangan pa bang i-explain kung baket?
6. blocked na ang blogger sa ofis namin... hehehe....
7. di ko pla sya mahal.... buti naman! hehehe....
8. nakabili na ko ng CD na may "High" na version ni Barbie... yey!!! :) (Tunog acoustic 4)
...can't wait for her upcoming album "Parade" (thanks, gloi, for the info:) )
9. i bought a watch with a digital compass... my first step in becoming the "Explorer" i wanna be! :)
10. malapit nang mag 2 years yung batch namin... (April 19...) wow! parang kelan lang...sniff...sniff.... feeling trainee pa din ako... hehehe... :)

... yun lang... next time na lang yung pictures... hehehe

ps...
im currently facing 135 degrees South-east...nyaaahahahaha....
wala lang... hehehe....