asking for a sign...

i know it's gonna happen...
i just don't know when...
i need a sign...

Excuse me, Mr. Milbo?... Mr Wimby? ... Mr. Wammo? pwedeng pa-autograph...

Habang tahimik na naghihintay sa Music One kasama ang mga projectmates ko...

Biglang nagsalita ang isa sa kanila:

projectmate na may crush ke sam: "mandyam shi sham... "
(sinasabi ng pabulong habang naka-smile... kunwari di nagsasalita...)
donna (projectmate na hindi kilala si sam) : "huh???"
projectmate na may crush ke sam: "mandyam shi sham... "
(ganun pa rin yung way nang pagsabi nya...)
ako : "huh???"
projectmate na may crush ke sam: "nandyan si sam.... sam milby!"
donna : "huh??? sam who?"
ako : "hahaha?!!! talga?! jas will die when she finds out!!!"

so fine.... dahil wala nga si jas to faint over this event, we figured na ibili na lang sya ng cd ni sam at kapalan ang mukha namin na mag-pa-autograph.

before that, kinalangan muna namin cguraduhing si sam milby nga yun...
fine, puntahan ng mas malapit... at this point, may nakita akong mga babaeng nasa bandang tabi nya... frozen and giggling.... hahaha....














yung naka-green na nakatalikod....















ok, sya nga!

so diretso kame sa OPM section to buy the CD. Tinanong ko yung babae sa counter kung meron silang marker. wala daw. (at nilinaw ko na hindi para sa akin yung CD... hehehe..)
but somehow, the cosmos wanted jas to have it... Merong marker c sally!!! what are the odds of that??? Swerteng bata 'tong jas na to ah?!

so here comes the hard part...
nagmamadali naming hinanap si sam... baka kse umalis na... at ayun, nakita namin sya ni donna sa may sulok... hehehe...

ako : "ah, hi! we don't mean to be rude...... (some random sentence)... but can we have your autograph... it's for a friend.... she's gonna die when she get's this (or something like that)"
sam : "oh, sure it's ok.... (or something like that...) "
sam : "did u just buy this now? (or something like that...)"
sam : "i have a repackaged cd... it has My Girl..." (nagpromote pa tlaga...)
donna : "nice movie... " (refering to the "So Close" dvd sam was holding)
sam : "yah... i also bought Gary V.... " (refering to the "Gary V" cd he was holding)
ako : "you should get barbie's new album " (syempre, nag-promote pa... :) )
sam : "oh, yah! that's a great idea!"
ako : (what?!!! wala ka pang album ni barbie?!!!! u f*&#g retard!!!!!) --pro syempre di ko sinabi to...
donna : "could we also take a picture (or something like that)"
sam : "sure.... (or something like that)"

donna's holding the cam... (mautak na bata!.. pra nga naman di sya sama sa pic...)

ako : "opsss.. teka, bakit ako lang??!!!"
(looking at my projectmates, pleading for help)
buti na lang, sumama si frank at melissa sa pic... kundi... eewww..... scarred for life...

after the pic was taken, we said thank you and ran for our lives... :)

projectmate na may crush ke sam: "bilisan natin, nasusuka ako..."

huh??? what the... that's weird... :)
hahaha...

buong dinner, yung "autograph incident" ang topic... hehehe...

jas,
nahawakan ni sam yung jacket ko...
bilin mo na, mura lang... hehehe.....

ps:
pot, sori di ka namin nabili ng CD... medyo late ko na na-realize na fan ka nga rin pla... (teka, secret ba ito? hehehe.....)
mas buang lang kse c jas ke sam... kaya sya kagad naisip ko...
next time, pag nagkita uli kame... hehehe... as if... (feeling close.... hahaha) :)

feeling ko may isang bata na madalas magpupunta sa M1 tuwing friday night... :)

excuse me, pwede pong bumati uli??

Happy Birthday Gloriecar!!!! :)

On silence and chickens

lying in the dark and cursing the neighbors
it's too early for me to sleep, but im way too bored to do anything else. The night would have been perfect for a nice long rest, except for one thing... Our neighbor (some dude) is having a videoke session, or as i'd like to call it, a deathwish. Even the usually noisy chickens are quiet tonight, perhaps contemplating on committing suicide, rather than listen to the neighbor perform yet another round of "Seasons in the Sun". Atleast the dogs were brave enough to bark in protest.

"we has joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun"....
somebody...anybody... kick this guy in the balls pleeeease...

And yes, dreams do come true!
The dude finally stopped singing! Either that, or someone actually kicked him out of his wits. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, sometimes, justice prevails!

Silence? Is there ever such a thing?
It's soooo nice and quiet. The dogs stopped barking too! It's almost too good to be true. Being the pessimist that i am, any moment now, I'm expecting a marching band to play right and front of our window. Ok, that may have been too over the edge... Perhaps, yet another scorned wife will shout her lungs-out to her two-timing husband...Nope, still quiet... Hmmmnn... Well, maybe not tonight. I'm still wondering what the catch is...Ok, maybe there is no catch. Perhaps, every once in a while, our dear neighbors grow some common courtesy in their backyard garden. Ahhhh.... What a great night to rest!

I knew it! I'm crazy, I'm crazy!
Unfortunately, my mind is mocking me... Instead of having a nice and undisturbed rest on this unusually quiet night, this song keeps playing in my head : "we had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun..." To make matters worse, there's an image in my head of chickens laughing... mocking me... I knew it! I'm crazy!

here we go again...

issue na naman pla uli ito...
haaaayyyy.....

how come when everything in my life is going perfectly well and comfortable, this thing always comes up?

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a dialogue all in my head:

kelangan ba tlaga?
oo... para sa akin din naman ito.

pro baket ngayon pa?
kung di ngayon kelan?

pro masaya pa ako.
yan ba ang prioridad mo?

anu ba ang tama?
EWAN???!!!

excuse me, pwede pong bumati?

Happy Birthday Melissa!!! :)


.... wala lang... hehehe...

independence day...

Happy 5th year anniversary!
... a celebration of freedom and independence...

limang taon na pla mula ng nagpaalam ako (or tayo)...

and honestly...
im happy i (or we) made that decision 5 years ago.

da vinci, sleeplessness, and omen

one... two... three... three sheeps... ahahahaha....
i seriously couldn't sleep last night...im not sure why. I tried counting sheeps... wala din, naalala ko lang yung episode sa sesame street na nagbibilang ng sheeps si count dracula...hehehe...
Maybe naninibago ako since matagal din akong nagstay sa bahay tpos last night biglang sa apartment na ako natulog. or maybe di ako pinatulog ng fact that the movie da vinci code sucks to the high heavens.

So dark the con of ron
Ron Howard! What have you done! Seriously, Dan Brown should sue them for doing a movie that falls terribly short of what readers of the book expected (readers = me :) )

Date na lang, pinagkakitaan pa...
666 - june 6, 2006. Opening ng Omen. not so sure if its a remake of the old omen or if its an addition to the long line of omen sequels... gusto ko rin manood,pro ayaw ko magka-nightmares... lalo ngayon na hirap akong matulog...

Being alone,being free,being me,and chopping people up! all in one movie night

for the record, i have friends
I watched a movie(da vinci code) at glorietta1 alone. Ok, before you start calling me names like loser, outcast, friendless bastard...etc... Let me clear things up. U must be wondering where my friends are?! Well, some have watched it already, others dont even want to watch it, others just have other things to do. So u see, i have friends, they're just not available this moment.

i can live with or without you
So what the hell! I said to myself, "With or without friends, i will watch da vinci! Whats the deal ba about watching a movie alone? Di nman kyo magchichicahan s loob. All u do there
is just sit and watch and for the sake of the others watching, keep quiet. I mean its one of
those things u can do and enjoy alone, unlike badminton, chess, basketball. etc...

lights on, the shame, the shame
I know it shouldn't be a big deal. But once the movie was over and the lights were turned
on, i felt a certain sense of shame. Shame that i was alone and the other ppl around were
either in couples or in groups. I know very well that there's nothing wrong about being
alone, but somehow i feel this certain paranoia about what other ppl think.

what do u think sir? How bout u maam?
Have i (or we) been reduced to this? Creatures whose satisfaction out of something must be inconformity with others? Individuals whose view of what is acceptable is constantly modified, depending on the view of the world? Have i become too dependent to the point of losing my own identity? Nooooooooooo........ [insert echo here...]

it's just that i, it's just that i...
Not that i want to be a rebel or something. I just want to have a point and stand up for it. no matter what it is and irregardless of what others feel or think about it. I just dont want to worry about what others would think about me. I just want to be understood without having to explain. I just want to be free. I just want to be me. Unfortunately, it aint that easy. But believe me, im trying!

suki, bili na mura lng per kilo
sabi nila, you cant chop people up and love them in pieces. Kelangan buo, both good and evil. Question is, kung may malaman kang "masama" tungkol s taong mahal mo, mamahalin mo pa ba ang buo nyang pagkatao? Wala lang, di ko rin gets kung pano ko npadpad s topic n to... I guess it has something to do with being free.

napulot ko lang somewhere...

gender sensitive version of Spiderman?

nearly a week...

tuesday night
started to have an ichy throat

wednesday
the itchy throat turned into cough.
mabel stayed home kasi may lagnat at ubo sya.
later that night, i went straight to bed (literally) tipong gumising lang ako pra magtanggal ng sapatos. at ayun na, nilagnat na rin ako... :(

thursday
pumasok pa din ako kahit masama pakiramdam ko...
(which was quite a wrong decision)
bumigay din ako nung bago maglunch, so nag-file na lang ako ng undertime at umuwi sa apartment.

friday
di na lang ako pumasok, masama pa rin pakiramdam ko.
umuwi na lang ako sa bahay namin sa valenzuela.
may lagnat pa din ako...
there's no place like home... :)

saturday
feeling a little bit better. wala nang lagnat, pro masakit pa rin ulo ko. :(

sunday
fever, cough, and cold is now gone. my head and back still hurts though...
not so sure kung papasok na ko bukas... baka daw kse mabinat lang ako. :(

he's not worth it...

he's not worth the tears...
marami pang iba dyan...

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what ever happens...
no matter how much i nag (or as i call it, "care" ) :)
and no matter how stubborn (or as u call it, "persistent") u are...
do know that im here... :)

chopsticks...

it's so like u to make something so simple so profound.
thanks...
sori uli...

Hay.... EWAN ko sa inyo....

baaaaaaaaaah...

sabi dati ng teacher ko, wala daw taong tanga...
kala ko nun, tama sya...
pro sa nalaman ko nitong mga nakaraang araw...

.... Ma'am... paumanhin po... mali po pla kyo...

ggrrrr.... kainis....

Barbie Rocks the Big Dome

Finally!!!! nakabili na ko ng concert ticket ni barbie!!!! :)
Kaso ang layo ko na sa stage.... sa row H, seat #8 na ako nakaupo... (8-8... uy! fave number!)

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May nagpost ng question dun sa yahoogroups....
"will barbie be able to fill up araneta?"

hhhmmm.... actually... medyo natatakot din ako....
pro i know barbie's music has touched many people...
sana lang, lahat sila suportahan c barbie...
(geez... i sound like a total fan-girl... nyaaaahahahha....)

uy!!!! lahat kyo!!!! manood kayo ng concert ni barbie!!!!!!!

May 19,2006 (Friday)
8:00pm
Araneta Coliseum

Ticket prices :
Patron (Reserved Seating) = 1056 (dito ako!!)
Lower Box (Reserved Seating) = 845
Upper Box A (Free Seating) = 634
Upper Box B (Free Seating) = 423
Gen. Admission (Free Seating) = 159

cmon!!! make nood!!! :) (nyaaahahaha.....)

cleaning up my harddisk...

ngayon ang last day ng aking 4-day vacation....
it's a time to be alone... to rest... to think things through...
in short... ang maging bum... :)

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I was going though some of my files sa pc...
Im trying to free up some space... dami na ksing files... ang gulo na...
Nakita ko yung mga pictures from the time na bago pa lang ako sa nsp up to present... wow...
tagal na pla... 2 years...

Just realized... masaya pla talga ako dito...

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Are you sure you want to remove the folder "NSP Pictures" and move all it's contents to the Recycle Bin?

No...
of course not...


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3 weekends + 3 beaches = 1 hell of a sunburn

Ngayon ko lang ma-po-post yung mga pictures.... :)


beach # 1 : Camotes Island Group

Probably one of the best beaches if ever been in (i've been in very few... hehehe)
Nice kse it's really clean... at konti lang ang tao.
Buong pwlan mnl group nandoon, kasama din c cheann, sir jay, at sir dong.
Nag "island tour" din kame... We went to several parks within the island... Nag attempt din kame na manghuli ng tilapia sa may lake... the key word being "attempt"... hehehe...

waaahh..... ang nice.... :)
















waaaahhh......... (yah, i know... di ako papasang tourist guide... hehehe...)
















cottages sa may bato-bato...
















sa may lake...



beach #2 : Tambuli Resort

May mga "green stuff" sa may shore, kahit pati dun sa water... so medyo di ganong "swimmable" itong beach na ito... :(
We did have fun in the banana boat though... hehehe... sakit sa katawan...
Lahat ng taga-manila na "on-exile" dito sa cebu, kasama :)















Welcome to Tambuli...
















ang mga pinatapon...
















ang mga pinatapon (uli...)
















the "green stuff"... anu? wanna swim??? :)



beach #3: Maribago Bluewater Beach Resort

Kasama dito cla jas, gloi, metz, cheann, sheila, karen, at ang aming only boy... si frank... hehehe...















the beach...















the beach uli.... with some dead dude sa shore... hehehe...
















sa swimming pool kasama ang makulit na bata... (at mga mas makulit na matanda)
















art gallery...

/* Sama ng loob... */

/*

baaahhhh...
di ko na kinaya kahapon....
naiyak na lang talaga ako...
nagpatong-patong na lang cguro...

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isa na lang... lalarga na...

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naaawa ako sa mga first-time bt-ers namin (plus sa mga sarili namin)...
baka maging masama ang tingin nila sa bt...
di naman ganito dati...poor kids...

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the efforts (though late) are appreciated...
but what's done is done... di naman natin mababalik ang oras...
so i'll just look forward sa kung anu mang mangyayari ....and smile...
may magagawa pa ba ako?

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/* weekend??? */

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weekend?? anu yun?

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made my dts today... nak ng... 2weeks-worth of work... done in one week...

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we are now on standby... Tomorrow morning is the alpha release... we need to be here during IT so that bugs can be fixed immediately.im soooo bored...i tried updating my DD... i got even more bored.....

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feeling ko friday ngayon... feeler tlga ako... hehehehe...

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late na naman kame !!!! our second this month... so nag-file na lang ng halfday... :(
di ba enough reason yun "really NEED to sleep???" :(

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konting ihip na lang bagsak na mata namin... wala na ngang nagsasalita... sayang ang energy...

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nagkakapimples na naman ako... hhaaaayy... tokwa...

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1:38am na... sa unang araw ng linggo... tokwa tlaga... :( pro walang magagawa... lahat kame prang naipit lang sa sitwasyon...

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antok na ko... grabe....

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/* confused by earlier errors, bailing out... */

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just realized...what a boring life... :(
semi-tired of this kind of life...

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It's saturday... at nandito kame ngayon sa office, rendering OT... :(

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Words of the day: Dablcortation (' " ')

-nabasa namin sa coding guidelines na galing Japan. I think it was translated using Atlas translator... took us quite a while to realize what it meant..."Double quotation".... hahaha... funny noh??? natawa kame promise... ambabaw namin... hahaha...
isa yan sa mahirap sa trabaho namin... programmer ka na, semi-translator / manghuhula ka pa...pahirapan sa pag-intindi ng specs... hulaan ng hulaan kung anung ibig nilang sabihin...kung tama, e di oks, kung sablay... well... REDESIGN / RECODE!!!!...ouch... (mind u, madalas ito!)

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napansin ko lang while reading this entry.... REDESIGN - DE = RESIGN .... hehehe... funny...sabi ni dennis, yung DE daw "Design Engineer"... hehehe...
(still no plans though... just incase ur intrigued...)

while were on the topic...
i think isa ito sa major problems na kelangang i-address ng kahit anung company. As a programmer, nakaka-frustrate din kse yung papalit-palit ngdesign at paulit-ulit ng code... nakakababa sya ng morale... minsan, to a pointna people are starting to consider quitting...Pro sabi nga nila... lahat naman ng bagay nag-iiba, depende sa perspective. Pwede mo naman isipin na isa yung challenge...So ako, how do i view the situation??.... hhmmnn... depende sa mood... hehehe...

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wala akong maisulat kahapon... wala namang ganun ka-interesting na nangyari... parang katuladlang ng the day before that, except mas maaga kame naka-uwi...10:30pm... yah! yan ang definition naminng maaga...

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naalala ko lang... tinuro ng prof namin dati nung college...ito daw ang meaning ng "assume" sa programming world...
ASSUME = ASS-U-ME
ASS U for giving me incomplete specs...
ASS ME for believing that that was the specs u really wanted.

wala lang...hehehe....too many asses in one entry.... :)

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i kind of miss being a kid again...i think i grew up too soon...

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minsan di ko na maintindihan kung anung gusto kong mangyari...di na yata ako masaya... :(may mga araw na minsan di ko na kilala ang sarili ko...ito na ba yun? kung ito na... prang ayaw ko na... nakakasawa... nakakahinayang...dati nararamdaman ko pa na may mas magandang darating...pro bakit ngayon, parang wala na akong inaasahan... prang gusto ko na langna matapos ito...

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12:54am na... and we're still here in the office... at opo... sabado po ngayon...

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"confused by earlier errors, bailing out"
haaay....buti pa ang compiler...

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