my 100th post...

Laundry day :)

di ko na post kahapon... wala lang.. tinamad lang..
hehehe...

200yen for 30mins... :)
yan yung sabon na binili ko sa store na may manong na marunong mag-tagalog












dryer...100yen for 10minutes



















libot muna sa neighborhood habang naghihintay na matapos yung laundry...
isang bookstore...
















Hokka hokka tei... yan ang madalas naming lunch... pero yung sa mita yung kinakainan namin...
ito yung malapit sa hotel (tapat ng bookstore)
















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nasa mga pics na rin lang... damay ko na to...


cute noh? masarap din sya... hehehe... binigay sa amin ni frank ni kameoka-san

Life's a Bleach...

naa-addict ako ngayon sa Bleach... hehehe...
wala lang...ito pinapanood ko dito, every night... :)
i kinda like the ending song...

Life is Like a Boat
(Bleach ending song)

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who’s gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

dooku de iki o shiteru toomei ni natta mitai
kudayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku shisarete tadake

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku mukedashiteku naru
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de mune o tsureteku

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'll feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de ume o terashidasu

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Unmei no huneoko gi nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to watashi-tachi o sou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne, dore mo suteki na tabi ne


http://www.animelyrics.com/anime/bleach/
(Anime) BLEACH: Life is Like a Boat (N/A)

the workplace... :)

















the 140yen i can never get back... ewww tlaga....
















wala pong sunog... at lalong wala ding mumu...
malamig lang talaga ngayon at may exhaust system dyan, kaya pag bumubuga sya ng hangin... prang may smoke machine... :)

















dito ako nadulas kanina :(
di naman masakit, at wala na mang ibang nakakita (ata) kundi c frank :) hehehe...
















snow.... :)
ilalagay ko sana sa bote... kase may isang batang nagpapauwi... hehehe....kaso bigla akong tinablan ng hiya... hehehe
















mga bike... sana meron din ako dito sa japan... saya cguro gumala...

Oras...

Mula ng bata pa ako, binibigay na sa akin ang lahat (well, not all... di ko nakuha yung puting kabayo nung 4years old pa lang ako...)

Yes, I admit, I was (or am) one hell of a spoiled brat...

Pero meron akong gusto na minsan ko lang makuha...
Oras...

Hindi ko masisisi ang mga magulang ko,
Pareho silang nagta-trabaho pra mabigay sa aming magkakapatid ang lahat ng kelangan namin at higit pa...
Pero syempre, iba pa rin tlaga pag alam mong pinag-uukulan ka ng panahon.
Hindi kse yan nabibili... at minsan, isa rin syang sakripisyo...

Kaya gusto kong magpasalamat sa mga taong nagbigay sa akin ng oras ngayong araw (at noong mga nakaraang araw) ...
lalong-lalo na dun sa mga taong di ko inaasahan na nandyan lang pla kung kelangan ko...

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Eeyore: HOY!!! KAPAG NALULUNGKOT KA DYAN... I-JABBER MO LANG AKO... or KAME... kht sino... hehehehe

May split personality ka pla... hehehe.., sabi ko na nga ba... Baliw ka rin... hehehe... joke lang... natawa talaga ako nung sinabi mo yan... ang lumanay kase ng flow ng usapan natin, tpos bigla ka na lang sumigaw... hehehe... Pro salamat... salamat tlaga...

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Toothbrush-pal: wag ka mag-alala...para sayo, 2 beses akong magttoothbrush para parang hindi ka nawala sa tabi namin... :P

Simula nung binigyan mo ako ng antlers, dun ko na-realize... “Baliw din itong isang 'to...“hehehe... Salamat. Dahil 2 beses ka nang nag-to-toothbrush pag lunch, di na lang din ako mag-to-toothbrush... hehehe... malamig naman e... (hehehe... connection???)

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b. jr. : elow po ate nina. msta japan? :D

thanks for asking... Wag kang mag-alala... magiging japayuki ka rin balang araw... hehehe... At sana winter din pag pumunta ka dito, pra magsisi ka nung sinabi mo na masarap pag may snow...hehehe... joke lang... basta aral lang ng aral ng diameter, oks? Hehehehe...

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b. sr : ano nang nakain mong exotic?

Hehehe... pagkain na naman ang topic natin... Atleast, for the first time, nag-agree tyo sa isang bagay regarding food... Hindi masarap ang natto... hehehe...sana mag-abot tyo dito sa japan... pra meron kaming “food guide” ni frank... hehehe...

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Sa lahat ng nakakaalala...
Sa lahat ng mga kaibigang madalas kong makausap...
salamat...

Maraming salamat sa oras.. :)

ramblings of an idle mind...

this trip made me realize something...
im emotionally-dependent...
Ngayon ko lang tlaga na-realize un. After several years of "training" myself to be independent, doing things on my own, not asking for help when i know i can do things, etc... It's frustrating to know that i really do need emotional support... and it's much more frustrating not to get any. :(

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Marami pa lang naiisip ang taong walang magawa... The idle mind is the devil's workshop, ika nga nila...

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today i received an email from my dad... i cried... i never imagined myself in such a situation... i would actually find the thought silly... and to think all it said was advanced happy birthday and i love you.... yes, im this pathetic...

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btw, hindi po ako nagpapaawa... di ko kelangan nyan... pwera na lang kung ikaw si God.

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is it possible to love someone and not get hurt?

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im sinking deep into depression... must be the hormones...

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tao pla ako... at malamang, masokista pa...

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hindi na kita mahal... pro naalala lang kita... must be the hormones....

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how to be emotionally-independent??? solution: wag magmahal... kaya mo ba yun?

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my skin is soooo dry....

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busy?

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what's your priority?

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mahirap pa lang maging "invisible"

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everything but you... how sad is that?

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ang mundo... sa pagkaka-alam ko ay sa araw umiikot... hindi sa 'yo....

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bakit ba ako malungkot??? di ba dapat hindi? malamang matagal na pla akong malungkot... di ko lang napapansin nung nasa pinas ako kase maraming distractions... Siguro i should take this time to reflect kung ano ang tunay na problema. Ito na siguro ang pinakatamang panahon...

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tumigil na ang mga luha... hala, hilamos na!

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sana may makita akong snow bukas...

I'm broke but im happy....

Today we went to Akihabara....
my purpose... to buy myself a digital camera...
meron akong 4 cameras na pinagpipilian....


1) Casio Exilim S600
6mp, 3x optical zoom, 2.2" LCD

ang nipis no?! yun talga ang plano ko nung nasa pinas pa ko, gusto kong cam, yung manipis/maliit lang, pra kahit san, madaling dalin...










2) Sony Cybershot DSC-D7
5.1mp, 3x optical zoom, 2.5" LCD

isa pa itong OA sa nipis... feeling ko kasya sya sa wallet ko... (lalo na ngayon na wala na syang laman!!! hehehe....)














pro nung gabi before kami pumunta ng Aki, may naisip akong feature na wala itong dalawang ito... hindi ko makukunan yung sarili ko ng maayos.... :(
which brings us to my number 3 and 4 choice....



3) Sony Cybershot DSC-M2
5.1mp, 3x optical zoom, 2.5" LCD screen that tilts













ang cool ng design, mukha syang celfone... hehehe...
meron nito c carlo, pro im not sure kung M1 or M2 yung model nya... madami itong options... good for people who want to experiment with their pictures.


4) Nikon Coolpix S4
6mp, 10x optical zoom, 2.5" LCD




















do not be fooled the the jologs name "cool pix"... hehehe....
na-astigan talaga ako sa design ng isang ito nung nakita ko sya sa net.... at nung nalaman ko pa na 6mp at 10x optical zoom.... :O grabe! hehehe..... it's not that bulky, at mapipicturan ko ang sarili ko! hehehe.... problem nga lang dito, walang image stabilizer... sasabihin nya lang syo na blurry yung picture while your trying to focus it... Point and shoot camera sya, so those who are seriously into photography, might find this camera frustrating.


so, sino ang inuwi ko????













tada......
Nikon Coolpix S4
















front view: (pro teka, nasan yung lens?)
















rear view: (huh?! wala pa rin yung lens???!!)
















there's the lens!!!! hehehe.... (parang bata...)
















uy! may cute!!! hehehe....
















not the best camera in the market... pro it makes me really happy!!! :)
wag na nating pag-usapan kung magkano, sabihin na lang nating matinding pagtitipid ang kelangan kong gawin! hehehe....

so sa mga friends na di ko mabibilan ng pasalubong... miss ko na kyo, pro sorry na lang... isipin nyo na lang, napasaya nyo ko... hehehe.... :)

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im broke but im happy,
im poor but im kind...

lakad lang.... :)

kahapon pa dapat ito... kaso may topak yung blogger...

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nung umaga, kasama namin si melissa na naglibot-libot sa magome area, dun sa mga shops near our hotel.

at ito ang aming mga nakita...



yes, there are also ducks in japan... even in their kid's diapers... :)
















jas daw oh... hehehe....
















Horenji Temple: we bumped into this area by accident... hehehe...
kakalakad, kung saan-saan kame napunta!
















o, nihongo classmates... kung nag-aral kyo ng kanji natin for lesson 3 and 4, dapat alam nyo kung anu yan! hehehe... (this is still in Horenji Temple, sa labas)
















Ito yung temple:
















naglakad-lakad uli kami, then nakakita kme ng video rental shop...
mabel... pra sa iyo 'to... hehehe....















o, ito pa isa... o yan, dapat wala ng pasalubong... hehehe....
















chocolate ducks...
c jas tlaga... ayaw kaming tantanan! hehehe....
















nung hapon, nag train na si melissa papuntang airport, kami naman, napadpad at "naligaw" sa ginza... hehehe...

matsuya ginza...
















next... trip to Akihabara... :)

dahil malamig.... hehehe....

Firewoman
barbie's cradle

The moons gone down
I know you're still awake
This heart I've found
I didn't intend to break
Cause I've seen the world from down there
And it wasn't a pretty sight
Now the circle is turning
Are you armed for the fight
I wanna be a firewoman
I'll water down your desire
Cause I know this love is a killer
I wanna put out your fire
Apology is futility
Now destiny is not a friend
Did you come for danger
You gave me love for pain
Now you're much more than a stranger
I wanna give you love
But all I have is rain
I'm gonna put it out

nihongo ga wakarimasen

hhmmnnn....
today, 2 beses akong natanong ng mga strangers kung ano ako... (at hindi po ako kalabasa....)

one was in a store. the old guy in the counter asked me something in nihongo... nasa utak ko, gusto kong sabihin na "nihongo ga wakarimasen"... kaso i was in shock... hehehe... di ko nasabi, pro mukhang nahalata nya naman. so sabi nya "where are you from" or something like that. (nak ng tofu, marunong naman pla mag-english!) so sabi ko "Philippines". He asked me kung meron na daw akong discount card, i said no, so he gave me one. On our way out, he said, "Salamat po" (nak ng tofu tlaga, marunong naman pla ng tagalog!!!... hehehe... ) Cool noh? hehehe...

another incident was in the train papuntang magome., nung pauwi na kme. We were sitting next to an old japanese guy. Nung mga bandang gitna na nung ride, he said "Singapore-jin", "Vietnam-jin"... etc... So i said "Firipin-jin desu". Sa loob-loob ko, finally, may nasabi na kong nihongo... hehehe... Tpos, he asked me something in nihongo uli... na syempre di ko gets... so sabi ko "nihongo ga wakarimasen" . Then he said, "Ah, gomen..." Dun ko na-realize na amoy beer pla sya... hehehe.. lasengots pla c lolo... hehehe...

and this is just day two?!!! hirap tlaga pag halata na hindi ka native dun sa lugar. atleast sa cebu, pag nagsalita ka, dun lang halata... dito, few feet away pa lang, alam na nilang "outsider" ako...
which i guess has it's pros and cons... hehehe...

nga pla...i'd like to take this opportunity to thank pimsleur's and sensei rochelle... hehehe... kahit papano may nagamit ako, bukod sa "ohayou"... hehehe....


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nagkamali kame ng baba ni frank ng train... bumaba kme sa Togoshi (ata... hehehe) basta one or 2 stations away from Magome... hehehe.... Since sayang ang pamasahe, nilakad na lang namin... 1 Km walk in freezing Tokyo... hehehe... Thank God for winter clothes... In fairness, di sya ganun kalayo... Tsaka nice din na maglakad-lakad sa isang bagong lugar... hehehe
Habang naglalakad, dun ko na-realize na napakarami tlagang vending machines dito... sayang di ko nabilang, pro cguro around 10 vendos yun.... 10 vendos within 1KM... wow.... dami!!!

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breakfast ko today: hhhmmnnn.....yum yum... although di ko ganong nagustuhan gano yung juice... masyadong matapang....pero pwede na rin... :)


















laptop ko.... at ang aking wallpaper.... (sniff...sniff)

Firsts..

my first sunshine in japan... from my room window...
















my first lunch... gyudon... (playing safe... will be more adventurous next time.. :) )

Dinner @ matsuya....

dito ka o-order ng food... via vendo...

















ito... hulaan nyo... hehehe... clue: isa sa mga purpose nya is to make sounds pra di malaman kung anung ginagawa mo... hehehe... look at next picture for the answer... hehehe

tada....it's a toilet bowl.. with lots of weird buttons! hehehe...

halata bang masyado akong amazed sa mga nakikita ko dito sa nihon? hehehe...
wala lang...

Welcome to Japan!

it's not as cold as i thought it would be... it's F***ING FREEZING!!!!
gabi kse cguro (ilang segundo lang kme naglakad sa labas....)...

the internet connection is AMAZING!!!!
halata bang yun ang una kong ginawa bago magbihis at mag-unpack? hehehe...

anyways,
ayusin ko muna gamit ko...
at matutulog na rin...

to my dear dear friends....
MISS KO NA KYO!!!!!!

yun lang... :)

aalis na ko....

yun lang...

Salamat...

kahapon sana ito... kso bagal ng net e.... :(

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Ang galeng….
Hindi ko tlaga inexpect…
Hindi ko naamoy… and to think malakas ang pandama ko sa mga “surprises”.

Salamat po tlaga… touched tlaga ako…
Salamat sa time at effort, kahit na medyo busy tyong lahat at yung iba dyan nasa malayong lugar… Salamat tlaga…
Wala akong masabi…. Madaming words napumapasok sa ulo ko ngayon, pro sabog… pro basically, it all boils down to one. SALAMAT!!! Hindi ko madalas sabihin yang word na yan, kse para sa akin, kung kaibigan mo tlaga ang isang tao, lahat ng ginagawa nya para syo, ginagawa nya dahil gusto nya at dahil mahal ka nya… wala na dapat “thank u”, implied na yun… kaligayahan nya dapat na gawin ang lahat ng iyon para sa iyo… pro sa pagkakataong ito, kelangang ko syang sabihin… di ko kayang i-contain ang nararamdaman ko… I feel so blessed to have all of you as my friends…
SALAMAT PO!!! At MAHAL ko po kyong lahat….

(ang mushy na nito…. Tama na….)

Sabi ko di ako iiyak…
Hehehe…

kanta lang...

Pag-alis
by barbie's cradle

kung wala ka ng gustong sabihin
wag ka nang tumingin ng ganyan
kung bukas ako'y kalilimutan
sana naman ngayo'y di mo na isiping ako'y tawagan
at habang may panahon
wag na nating hintaying lumalim pa
at masakit ng tanggapin
ang pag-alis ng iyong liwanag na gumigising sa mahabang gabi
ika'y langit pero baka masanay
at di na kakayanin ang iyong pag-alis
kung wala ka ng gustong marinig
ako'y aalis at mananahimik
ang kahapon na nais kung limutin
sana naman wag ng manumbalik at bigyan pansin

hindi ko alam...

Gym Day 1

20 minutes on stationary bike
20 minutes on treadmill
20 minutes on rowing machine
= 1 hour of self-inflicted torture.

For a person who hasn’t stepped inside a gym for nearly 3 years and has done nothing that could amount to anything “physical” within the same timeframe, day 1 of gym is nothing but a bucketful of pain and a fountain of sordid sweat. But that’s not the worse part of it. After beating myself up for “fitness-sake”, I went straight to the lockers and walla! I was greeted by one of my worst “fears”…. Women in towels…. But wait! There’s more! I was advised by the instructor to try the sauna to loosen up my tensed (and badly-beaten) muscles. Being the obedient kid that I am, I half-heartedly followed. It’s bad enough that they (toweled women) surround me, but to join them… now that’s a totally different story! After about 10 minutes of discussion with edaine (my officemate and fellow “gymer”) regarding the “proper decorum” in the sauna, with grave hesitation, I entered the dark & steamy room. I was seriously avoiding any form of contact (even eye contact) from the two other ladies inside. I sat there for about 15 minutes, then hit the showers, then went straight home.

I think I’m slowly becoming a masochist…good luck na lang sa akin! Hehehe…

You Don't Love Me Anymore

The song just popped on my head this morning...
dont know why...
maybe subconsciously i feel less loved? hehehe.... OA...



We've been together for so very long
But now things are changing, oh I wonder what's wrong?
Seems you don't want me around
The passion is gone and the flame's died down

I guess I lost a little bit of self-esteem
That time that you made out with the whole hockey team
You used to think I was nice
Now you tell all your friends that I'm the Antichrist

Oh, why did you disconnect the breaks in my car?
That kind of thing is hard to ignore
Got a funny feeling you don't love me anymore

I knew that we were having problems when
You put those piranhas in my bathtub again
You're still the light of my life
Oh darling, I'm beggin', won't you put down that knife?

You know, I even think it's kinda cute the way
You poison my coffee just a little each day
I still remember the way that you laughed
When you pushed me down that elevator shaft

Oh, if you don't mind me asking, what's this poisonous cobra
Doing in my underwear drawer?
Sometime I get to thinking you don't love me any more

You slammed my face down on the barbecue grill
Now my scars are all healing, but my heart never will
You set my house on fire
You pulled out my chest hairs with an old pair of pliers

Oh, you think that I'm ugly and you say that I'm cheap
You shaved off my eyebrows while I was asleep
You drilled a hole in my head
Then you dumped me in a drainage ditch and left me for dead

Oh, you know this really isn't like you at all
You never acted this way before
Honey, something tells me you don't love me any more, oh no no
Got a funny feeling you don't love me anymore

[approximately 10 minutes and 2 seconds of silence]

[some loud and spontaneous noises]

Leaving and change...

Leaving and change...
I've grown to hate those words. I don’t like it when things I’ve gotten used to are suddenly not there anymore. Waking up in a different bed, walking in a different street, and meeting and being surrounded by new people... it scares me.
Leaving or being left behind... I don’t know which one is worst. What difference does it make? You end up missing people anyway.
But what really sucks the most is that no matter how hard I try to stop things from happening, they still will. Things will have to change and some people will leave and some will be left behind.
I guess all that’s left to do is to make the most of today. Live it as if it would be my last. Walk the same streets over and over again and try to appreciate them a little bit more. Show more love and affection to the people I really care about the most. Because who knows, the change I am so afraid of could happen sooner than I think.

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When was the last time I told you I love you?

best advice i heard today...

"baka she's adjusting too"

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tama ka, salamat. galing mo tlaga magbigay ng advice! :P