ramblings of an idle mind...

this trip made me realize something...
im emotionally-dependent...
Ngayon ko lang tlaga na-realize un. After several years of "training" myself to be independent, doing things on my own, not asking for help when i know i can do things, etc... It's frustrating to know that i really do need emotional support... and it's much more frustrating not to get any. :(

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Marami pa lang naiisip ang taong walang magawa... The idle mind is the devil's workshop, ika nga nila...

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today i received an email from my dad... i cried... i never imagined myself in such a situation... i would actually find the thought silly... and to think all it said was advanced happy birthday and i love you.... yes, im this pathetic...

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btw, hindi po ako nagpapaawa... di ko kelangan nyan... pwera na lang kung ikaw si God.

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is it possible to love someone and not get hurt?

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im sinking deep into depression... must be the hormones...

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tao pla ako... at malamang, masokista pa...

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hindi na kita mahal... pro naalala lang kita... must be the hormones....

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how to be emotionally-independent??? solution: wag magmahal... kaya mo ba yun?

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my skin is soooo dry....

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busy?

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what's your priority?

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mahirap pa lang maging "invisible"

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everything but you... how sad is that?

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ang mundo... sa pagkaka-alam ko ay sa araw umiikot... hindi sa 'yo....

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bakit ba ako malungkot??? di ba dapat hindi? malamang matagal na pla akong malungkot... di ko lang napapansin nung nasa pinas ako kase maraming distractions... Siguro i should take this time to reflect kung ano ang tunay na problema. Ito na siguro ang pinakatamang panahon...

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tumigil na ang mga luha... hala, hilamos na!

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sana may makita akong snow bukas...